This is where my new story begins...The truth

I have put down my blog for a long time because my life took so many unexpected turns.  Many things important to me died in my life... including this blog.  I think its about time to give life to it again.

I am writing a new story.  A story that I guess I have been writing all along.  A story in which I am the one holding the pen.  I'm pretty sure their will be a shift in my blog, the way I write, who I touch...but, then again, maybe not.   As I give voice to my new story, I have discovered some new truths and some truths that I have always known that  are perpetually before me.

The truth is :

   *   I am in the middle of a divorce and all of the nuances that it entails. 
   *   This storm continues to shape me despite the many days that I feel that I'm already shaped.
   *   Everyone has their own version of the truth.
   *   Sin cheapens relationships.
   *   There is something more to this life and I will find it.
   *   I am forever thankful for every opportunity to laugh and play...literally.
   *   I am grateful for friends that have become my sisters.
   *   I am thankful for God's mercy and protection.
   *   Whatever you feed will grow.


So now what?   Psalm 39:7, "And now, Lord, What do I  wait for, My hope is in You". (NKJV)




   

God, I have a question.

I've been having an ongoing conversation with God.  Telling Him all of the details of my life...even though I know He already sees it all. I kinda get the feeling He longs for the sound  of my voice.

Today, a song, by one of my favorite groups (All Sons and Daughters)  keeps finding its way into my mind and on my lips.

The song is called "Beautiful".  And every word, I have been speaking to God a thousand times.  Funny thing...He doesn't  seem to mind.

Beautiful

Will your grace run out if I let you down?

Cuz all I know is how to run.

Cuz I am a sinner if it's not one thing it's another, caught up in words, tangled in lies.

But you are a Savior, and you take brokenness aside and make it beautiful... beautiful.


Will you call me child, when I tell you lies? Cuz all I know is how to cry.

Cuz I am a sinner if it's not one thing its another, caught up in words, tangled in lies.

But you are a Savior, and you  take brokenness aside, and make it beautiful...


.......Beautiful.

Dearest Dolly,

How could 7 years pass by soo quickly?  It seems like only  yesterday that I was staring at you asleep in your crib.  Now sometimes I have to beg you to go to bed.  No matter how big you get you will always be my little Dolly and I will always love you.

 Love,

Mom